Distain for the Reflection

Sometimes I get an overwhelming urge to peel the skin off and reveal contemptuous places locked inside of myself. There are times where the skeleton must be shown.
I made a disturbing admission tonight. It was odd how it came out because it did not seem like me. I was standing outside watching myself speak.
"Yes, I ate an entire pizza.''...''Well not exactly'', I murmured. Typically I do not get a response from that. This time I did. I think he saw for the first time how much I hated myself. I wanted to go in to it..tell him how long and for why but I purposely blurted this within a space I would not have to explain.
I am selfish-making him sleep on that.
I have a fervent venomous malice towards myself and what I have become. I wish to maul and cut at what I see in the mirror.